Conequences

Shortly after sending this crazy email, televison [shows and commercials], radio, and people began talking AT me. STarted noticing that all of the above would respond to things i was doing/saying in private. I was convinced, and had plenty of outside help in convincing me further, that i was some kind of prophet. Noticed that bumper stickers, t-shirts, celebrities, television, radio playlists seemed directed at me. Started noticing that i was being followed, everywhere. Started noticing that some jokes i would make [since i'd started talking out loud all the time when 'alone'] would make people laugh, out loud - alone in their cars. It could've just been syncronicity, but it was happening ALL THE TIME. I thought Revelations [in the Bible] was happening, and that i was somehow central to goings on. Within days of me 'choosing' a sign to put on my forhead, starting seeing the sign everywhere. Slogans on TV commecials seemed to be talking to me. I chose as 'my' sign, a bullseye. Target [the Superstore] changed their slogan to 'SOUNDS GOOD'. Like yeah, we like the symbol you drew on your forhead in private. Many other corps slogans began changing seemingly centered on me and what i was doing/saying in private. I'll gradually begin pullling out my notes, these events began happening everywhere, all the time. Everytime i tried to report them, i was told i was just Schizophrenic. Everytime i turned on coporate/public radio - songs were mean spirited, demoralizing [except when i was 'behaving']. TV talk shows began insulting me in a way that i couldn't prove, but with enough personal private details that i knew i was the target.

At some point, i wrote 'HELP' on my ceiling with my eyes, short time later, something on TV echoed my behavior, started thinking someone could see thru my eyes. I'm driving around trying not to THINK anything for fear it will lead to more harrasment. Thinking 'ohhmmmm', like meditative chant, get home after thinking it. Olay 'Ohm' commercial airs about 10 times. Start freaking out and making threats. TV World continues informing that it knows what i do in private. I found a way to remove the fake wood wall panel on the wall in my rented room where i could enter the attic. Ticker on CNN says something about back areas behind walls having asbestos. This wasn't the first time the NEW media ticker [started just prioir to of after 911] seemed to be following me around as well. Frequently info on ticker would have something to do with what i was actually doing. Ticker/Commercials/Slogans/Tshirts/Bumper Stickers/ Radio songs seemed to be happy when i was at ease, and got angry tone when i started talking about constitution stuff or how america was a surveillance state. Sometimes i was wrong or mean, i screamed a lot, but i didn't understand how the 'land of the free' could allow EVERYTHING in God's creation to spy on and harass me for my private behavior. Put out a cigarrete without snuffing it and i thought, great, i'm going to see a smokey the bear commercial - sure enough, went in the house and smokey the bear was on telling me to be careful. I got really aggravated that so many people seemed to be in on 'IT' but everyone seemed to tolerate loss of civil rights from illicit surveillance to blatant harassent.

More later... the types of things i'm listing continue to this day. I've stopped watching television/listening to the radio [basically stopped listening to anything coporate]. I do listen to KGNU Community Radio Boulder, Colorado.